Hidden Depression

You want me to talk about it?

About the constant pain

Caused by remembering

Unable to forget the loss

Always hurting inside

That's why I hide it from the world

Keep silent in my misery

Some say misery loves company

But I dont' want to share it

No one should hold theese feelings

No one should have to know

About the constant suffering

Willing the end to come

But unwilling to steel something else

From the ones I love

I can't talk about it

Just remembering brings the pain

The moister running down my face

I hate them

The tears

They betray that brave front

Showing my vulnerability

Just trying to live through it

Through life one step at a time

What's happened can't be rewond

The unshared story

Dying to get out

But I keep it trapped locked up

Away from those who try to see

Trying to be happy

Cause that's the only way to keep

From Crying

Trying to hide the stabbing I feel

A I even fooling you?

Is all my effort a waste?

No. It keeps me sane

Even if you see through

The mask I wear

Seeing through my cover

Through the forced smile

Under the happy

Smilig face

Hides a secret

A hidden depression

I wrote this because my mom thinks that I should talk about loosing my brothers more often. Because that's how she gets through it. And she doesn't think that I should keep it bottled up. Well this is why I keep it inside. I needed to write something inspired by a picture. And if you haven't read my other blog this is a picture that I took of my best friend. I thought that this poem and subject went well with this picture.